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| User: | demonwithin (81494) Lost Little Girl
Fighting the Demon Within |
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| Name: | Saraiyu "Sarai" Temeida | |||||||||
| Location: | United States | |||||||||
| E-mail: | nadeshikofurre@gmail.com | |||||||||
| Bio: | I don't know why I was chosen for this particular curse. My family was a nice, Christian couple, thrilled to have adopted a little 6 month old girl. I was supposed to be a blessing on them. A perfect addition to their perfect family. In me they got anything but a perfect daughter. My mother said she noticed the taint in me when I was about 5 years old. Little girls don't set their toys on fire. Little girls don't kill the neighbors cat and smear themselves with their blood. I never remembered doing these things. I only remember my mother and father punishing me. Locking me up and beating me... I couldn't touch the cross or the bible in the house. It burned me. Going to church always made me scream and cry in pain. When I was 10 the local priest tried to exorsize the demon. By then I knew what was wrong with me. She whispered things to me...sometimes I would lose chucnks of time...The preist would throw holy water on me, flog me, beat me. Nothing worked. She was always there. When I turned 16 I couldn't take it anymore. I ran. On the street I found a way to control her. It started first with pills, then weed, crack...finally herion. That keeps her inside. Keeps her from hurting people...from hurting me. Why did God abandon me? What did a small child do to deserve such a burden? Am I repenting for the sins of my real parents? I do not want this. I want to be free. I want to be within God's grace. I tried to kill the pain But only brought more (so much more) I lay dying And I'm pouring crimson regret and betrayal I'm dying praying bleeding and screaming Am I too lost to be saved Am I too lost? My God my tourniquet Return to me salvation My God my tourniquet Return to me salvation Do you remember me Lost for so long Will you be on the other side Or will you forget me I'm dying praying bleeding and screaming Am I too lost to be saved Am I too lost? My God my tourniquet Return to me salvation My God my tourniquet Return to me salvation Return to me salvation I want to die! My God my tourniquet Return to me salvation My God my tourniquet Return to me salvation My wounds cry for the grave My soul cries for deliverance Will I be denied Christ Tourniquet My suicide (Return to me salvation) (Return to me salvation) | |||||||||
| Schools: | None listed | |||||||||
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| Friend of: | 27: a_nickel_for, aalice, amnesiaisabitch, bewitchyou, damnedchilder, demonwithin, doriangray, f_lilredridinhd, h_lecter_md, heads_will_roll, hhmods, jessica_moore, johnnyboy, kkatie, league_of_emo, mymusable, notlikethebooks, pirateboyturner, princessgiselle, sara_wolfe, seleneenemy, shotgun_waltz, silverspirits, spenceparks, spintherevolver, thejoeblack, trickorthirteen | |||||||||
| Member of: | 2: hauntedhotel, hhouse | |||||||||
| Account type: | Free Patient | |||||||||
